November 2010 - January 2011
Beverly Hills and Bel Air. Two places I NEVER thought I'd find myself living. Yes, I looked for the Fresh Prince of Bel Air mansion and YES, I found it. Its amazing and my stalker ass isnt ashamed to admit it. Lol. I dont think I'll ever get used to this place, but It's a nice experience. The family I used to nanny for is no longer my old employers, they've become MY family. Working for them and bonding with these two precious little souls has forever shaped who I am. I can never regret the circumstances which led me to want to escape because it let me to them. Little do they know, they've done so much for me as a person. I wonder sometimes, where would I have been without them?
The girls are 10 and 11 now. They proudly call me their "older sister" whenever people ask. Right now they're in Aspen with their family for winter break, while I am in SLC with mine. I miss them so much already! I love them at this age. We get to watch parent-approved rated R movies together, The Real Housewives of BH (our favorite trash tv show) and best of all we just TALK. They're physically 11, mentally 17. Unbelievable. The rental home here in BH, ofcourse is nothing less than incredible. Right on the top of the Hills of Beverly.
It belongs to actress Theresa Russell. Once again, I didnt know who she was, but the paintings of her all over the home, and stashing all of her mail everyday finally persuaded me to google. My favorite thing to do is browse through her library. Most of her novels have letters from the author inside and handwritten notes describing the character in the book that she was studying to later portray in a film. I find myself wondering what kind of life she lived, and wished that that the walls could talk. Its the "nosy latina" in me :)
Its so wierd to write about the last 2 months because its still so fresh. Many people have questioned my reasons for leaving again, where I am at, and why. Truth is, this time, it wasnt ONLY over heartbreak. It was my way of wanting to move on with my entire LIFE. I am not, and never was cutout for all these corporate jobs I've held down for the last 7 years in between the moves. The money is always great, but It has never been ME. I only tolerated them for other reasons. To stay in Utah, to be near my family, to be near my friends, to be near my significant other, always putting everyone else before myself. That has been the story of my life, and for ONCE I feel like I am ready to put Daniela first. After so much bullshit, you begin to wonder why you're even where you are at! For a few years, I kept losing and finding myself, but never really did much FOR myself. Moving to LA 2 months ago has really done so much for me. I have never really been the small town girl I had allowed myself to be for so long and I finally was fed up enough to do something about it. Since Ive been here Ive already done alot of things on my bucket list. There are so many things I want to do and God blessed me with the greatest people, I feel like there is no way I can fail. I dont know what my life holds from here, but I am hopeful that I will make something great of myself one day. I hope when all of you read this, you realize that life is too short to settle for less than you deserve. Only YOU can change your life, its not going to change by itself. I honestly think my failed relationships is God's way of guiding me, slapping me on the wrist saying "Damn you Daniela! Its NOT your time yet, Listen to me!" After every obstacle, challenge or heartbreak, something great comes into my life. That cannot be a coincidence. I completely and entirely have placed my faith in his hands and I know Im right where Im supposed to be.
To the Future! :)
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